Week 34: Rewriting My Story, Conquering Hurdles
"Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope." - Maya Angelou
What did I do:
How do we show up in life for ourselves and for others? Are we willing to take the risk? Do we shy away? Do we believe in our own abilities? Do we crumble under pressure? Being a fairly athletic person, you'd think jumping hurdles (literally) wouldn't be such a big deal. Yet, the mental limitations we place on ourselves make mountains out of mole hills.
This week I decided to conquer a long standing, 22 year-old fear...jumping hurdles. A fear that has haunted me since 8th grade and has been part of my "story." Not anymore! I made a decision to go back in time, heal the wound and write a NEW story.
What story do you want to re-write? I'd love to hear about it.
Who was with me:
I called the one person that I knew could coach me through it, my friend Cortney. In high school, Cortney and I were on the basketball team. During spring quarter, while I played badminton, Cortney was a track and field star. She had a full ride scholarship in college, was a decathlete and now coaches track and field at California State University Fullerton.
My siblings and my adorable nephew also joined for moral support.
What did I learn:
I learned that although 22 years had passed, that same little girl who was scared at 13 was still scared at 35. The difference now, is that I know better. Fear is all in the mind. Cortney was amazing at affirming me and helping me prepare for jumping over hurdles. She went back to basics. First, specific stretches and exercises to open up my hips, gauge my flexibility and coordination. Then we built up slowing jumping over a lower bar to chip away at the fear and practice the timing of the jumps. Finally, we moved on to actual hurdles. You have to watch the episode to really see how I did.
Would I do this again:
Thankfully, I can safely say this fear is now behind me. I could however work on my form! It’s clear that I wouldn’t do well as a hurdler on the track team. But that wasn’t the point. The goal was to clear the hurdle. I can now draw from this experience and apply what I learned to future circumstances where fear or doubt may be my only barrier. More importantly, I know now how it FEELS to conquer a fear. Knowing something intellectually is one thing but experiencing it and feeling it takes you to a whole new level. I’ve been there, I’ve done that, I’ve felt it and now can to do it again and again and again. In that sense, I would absolutely take on other hurdles in life.